Lana Del Rey

For years I begged you

to just take me in your arms

you wouldn’t. Couldn’t.

But alas this is a real life - and it’s been a real fight just to

keep my mind from committing treason.

LA!

I know I’m bad but I have nowhere else to go can I come

home now?

I never had a mother

will you let me make the sun my own now

and the ocean my son

so just love me by doing nothing

except for perhaps by not shaking the county line.

I’m yours if you’ll have me

quietly or loudly

sincerely your daughter

regardless

you’re mine.

May my eyes always stay level to the horizon

may they never gaze as high as heaven

to ask why

The whys in this lifetime i’ve found

are inconsequential compared to the magic of the nowness

which is the solution to most questions

like sometimes i’m afraid my sadness is too big

and that one day you might have to help me handle it

but until then-

May i always keep my eyes level to this skyline

assessing the glittering new development

off the coast of Long Beach

never to heaven

Because i have faith in man as strange as that seems

in times like these

and it’s not just because of the warmth i’ve found in your

brown eyes-

it’s because I believe in the goodness in me

that it’s firm enough to plant a flag in

or a rosebud

or to build a new life.

Match the sun that’s slowly sinking

at the height of afternoon

In the heat of summer evening

Like a phoenix like a chemtrail like a wavelength No

one’s claiming

Don’t tell anyone but

part of my reasoning for taking the flight class was this idea

that if i could become my own navigator- a captain of the sky

that perhaps i could stop looking for direction- from you.

Well, wha

I could have said something but i was quiet

because pilots aren’t like poets

they don’t make metaphors between life and the sky.