Nina Jones

Vesper's not trying to kill herself

I have destroyed Mia.

I killed her father. I tormented her. I put her in Jude’s path. Without her consent, I gave her a child she will have to mourn for the rest of her days.

We will always be a reminder of the other’s pain. Looking at Mia will always remind me of the fact that I killed my sister. But Mia never had a say in that. All of the pain I caused Mia was willful.

I have destroyed Mia.

I killed her father. I tormented her. I put her in Jude’s path. Without her consent, I gave her a child she will have to mourn for the rest of her days.

We will always be a reminder of the other’s pain. Looking at Mia will always remind me of the fact that I killed my sister. But Mia never had a say in that. All of the pain I caused Mia was willful.

I knew I would hurt her, and I kept going back to her, because I am self-serving. Just once, I want to do right by Mia.

She will never have the life she deserves with me. She’ll always have to mask the agony I put her through. People don’t forget pain.

I of all people should know that

Even when I try to be good, I am bad. Even when I try to do right by you, I only hurt you. I wanted it all, and now you will live with the pain of losing a child and almost dying because I break things. I break people. Even when I try to create, I destroy.

You were right about me. I can’t be saved. I am broken. And it’s not fair to ask you to look past all the things I did. Mia, you are the closest thing to an angel, but I can’t ask you to forgive me. I’m not worthy.

You will find someone who is good. I’ll still want to break his face, but he’ll never hurt you like I have.

I will never find anyone as good as you.

I will never love someone like I love you. Never. There’s no one like you, Mia. No one